I'm back in DC and back at work after being away for almost two weeks. It's amazing how so much has happened in 13 days--it feels like a lifetime's worth of experiences. (That's the most cliché thing I've ever written but it's true to a large extent and I couldn't put the sentiment any other way.) I did write entries about Miami during that time that I haven't been able to finish and post yet, and I've also edited some marathon vlogs that's still sitting in my hard drive. It requires about half an hour, and hour at most, to fix them all up but I had a very busy week, what can I tell you? I might retro-post so try to see if some "old entries" will pop up in the next few days--I'm not promising anything but you might find something if you take some time to scroll down.
I spent five days in Miami, five days in Washington, DC, and the last three days in New York. On the record, it was one of my strangest visits to my old "hometown." And it was the first time in a very, very long time that a trip to New York felt like a visit. I ended up meeting with only one friend--the other two appointments that I had cancelled at the last minute. Even so, I felt like I did so much, even if my wanderings were restricted within the limited confines of the Upper West Side (where my hotel was located), the lower third portion of Central Park and Columbus Circle, and a sliver of Union Square.
My three visits to Central Park was special even if it was disappointing. I went with my camera, still figuring out all of its functions, and got some shots that I was hoping I can show in time for my next class. (However, I haven't had the time to get the rolls processed yet and asking for contact sheets takes a bit longer.) A lot of renovations are being done in the park, since it's the winter, so there were a lot of traffic cones, cyclone wires, no entry signs and tapes scattered all over the place, as well as men with hardhats. One of my favorite areas, the Mall (and the Literary Walk), was fenced off and the stone walk was uprooted. At the northern end of that strip is the Bethesda Terrace; the stairwell to the terrace was not accessible but at least the view of the fountain remained unobstructed. I took about a dozen shots of the angel, although given how gray it was the past few days, I'm not sure if I set the proper exposure.
I felt uneasy the whole time I was in New York, even anxious. Maybe it was the weather, I don't know. I've never been so uncomfortable in a hotel room; it felt almost claustrophobic. (Truth to tell, it was small, but I've stayed in worse places.) It was nice enough but I knew the bed wasn't mine. The night before I left, I felt myself already being reeled back to DC, insistently feeling the tug away from the city. I was antsy on the train, feeling relief only when I reached my apartment, back to a place of my own, a place where I'm welcome and expected.
The number of people I saw or tried to see was limited to only a few because I didn't intend it to be a social visit. First, I was, informally, on a job-hunting trip. Second, I was trying to sense my way back into the city, trying to see how I still fit in, hence, it required a large amount of time on my own. Thomas Wolfe wrote you can't go home again, something which I believe to be true. You're always going to go back to something different. The place is transformed just by the very fact that you left it, and is transformed once again by your return. I don't know. I'm reconsindering DC. If the place that used to be home does not welcome you back, you can pick up your bags, turn around, and leave forever. Or you can stubbornly ease your way back in. So it goes with places--and with people's hearts.
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While sitting in the lounge, waiting to board my train, and clutching my copy of The Year of Magical Thinking, I thought of a story idea. What if Rashomon was told vertically instead of horizontally? An event or incident told and re-told (or remembered) by one person over the course of a lifetime--an examination of how personal history, or even a personal event, is revised through time. Get it? I'm going through something like that I guess. Stories will be told and re-told and it's interesting to see how the mind will choose to remember. Sounds good for a novel. Or a film. But who has time to write those?
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